This is a story of one of the problems that entered my life when I changed school in the 11th grade. I studied in the same school from junior till 10th standard. The school campus was like my home, I was acquainted with all the teachers there, I had lots of chaddi-buddies and above all a bag full of memories- bad, good, best. But the time came when situations forced me to leave that school since it was related to my career.
Initially, I was happy and excited to move to a new school. You know, like a child who enters school for the first time. I was buzzing about going to a new school. But soon, my excitement disappeared after the first day.
The new campus, new environment, new people, new teachers everything new affected me so much that it developed an irrational fear inside me which held me from going to school for the next 4-5 days. I used to cry a lot, missing those happy days at my old school. The food lost its taste for me. Nothing pleased me. I stopped talking gibberish which I used to. I was engulfed within the walls of silence. I don’t know what to call that phase. Somewhere deep down I knew that this is breaking me as a person.
When I talked about my problem with my family, they supported me and helped me come out of my situation. I remember, when I used to cry, my mother used to tell my father-” do something about it, or else our daughter will go mad”. Seeing my miserable condition, my parents even suggested taking a one year drop. But that was not the solution to the problem.
Now, some of you might be thinking that how changing a school can affect someone so much. But the thing is, it affects! I know how I managed to survive those 10-12 horrible days. My parents took me to the counsellor and it was with her help and the help of my teachers that I managed to come out of my fear or depression, as you call it.
But those 10-12 days taught me the most valuable lesson of my life. Until you go out of your comfort zone, you don’t realise there are many new things in this world waiting for you. It is like when you jump into the water you learn to swim. I was so much familiar as well as comfortable in my old school that my mind refused to accept the change which was brought in the form of a new school. I constantly tried to train my mind to familiarise myself with the new environment. And that was the time I decided to start exercising and work towards a healthy mind and body.
So in a nutshell, if you are suffering from any such problem, don’t keep it to yourself. See your problem, share your problem with your friends, with teachers, with parents, with someone you trust, so that they can help you come out of your problem. Understand, it’s okay to talk.
You know when I recall this incident now I also feel that it was very irrational but it gave me the most valuable lesson. And yes, it didn’t break me, rather made a new me.
Author: Sakshi Mundra
