This blog is my humble endeavour to capture and assimilate all that is about ‘love, life, and health’, and everything related to it. My pursuit to fall in love with myself started a decade back. I did not know then, when and how I will be able to do it. No matter how difficult our journey gets, there is always a ray of hope, that feeble voice which always kept saying to me, DO NOT GIVE UP no matter what.
My story; it’s almost 22.01hrs by my system clock, date 18.2.2022; I finally mustered the courage to share a few more untold parts of me with you.
Yes, it all began when I could not take the pain of being neglected, bullied (verbally and physically), and I knew I had to safeguard myself. The irony was that everything took place within my comfort/safe zone. I did not have the courage to even create an ID on social media with my name as I feared being judged.
I tried to first reach out for help from those I had known for a long time. However, I did not know how to share what I was going through. I decided to keep quiet and continue with what was happening. The storm was not ready to leave me anytime soon. Years passed by, and I was still stuck in the same comfort zone and mental space. Physically I started to feel worse about myself, rather, I was made to feel worse to an extent that I wanted to give up this beautiful universe forever.
The phase where everything I loved about myself started to fall apart was when my physical health took the first blow. The doctors suggested that I should get a full-body scan done to rule out any possibilities of bone cancer as the pain in both my knees started growing. With the excruciating pain, I almost became immobile. My weight then was 88 kg. Now, the challenge was to help myself both mentally and physically.
I was working as a teacher then and my students were the best part of my day. I started taking baby steps towards improving my physical health, this time with no help from anyone around me. I took the first step to get a gym membership and then there was no looking back for me. At the end of each day, resistance training, martial arts class, and books to fall back upon were all I knew and got addicted to.
The few medical conditions which I could reverse or take control of are PCOD, HYPERTENSION, HEEL SPUR, NON ALCOHOLIC FATTY LIVER. My weight now is 57 kg. I have lost 31 kg, and not just have I won my own trust through my dedication and devotion towards my health, I have motivated many within my circle.
As they say that learning should never stop, I am a scholar too with INFS, pursuing my Diploma in Nutrition and Fitness along with Clinical Nutrition Advance Course. I have completed the Basic Nutrition and Fitness Course along with the workshops on ‘INFS Women’s Health and Wellness’ and ‘Kids and Adolescent Nutrition’.
I am also an active volunteer with The Movement India Team, teaching English to children belonging to Mumbai’s at-risk community. Today, I am the Principal of a Preschool (Online), I love teaching, and I still continue to do so along with coaching, guiding, and motivating anyone who wishes to uplift their physical and mental health.
Oh yes, I am still in the same comfort zone with the same people, just that now when I am bullied, they need to counter me with stronger logic.
Author: Kouli Roy Chowdhury
